i'm sad.
i've no tears.

but i'm sad.


we've done our best.
and thats all that matters.

we're the dirtiest which meant that we put in the most effort!

we've won, bobby.
we are number one.
forever and always.

ps.
hate you bitch seriously if you aren't that good dont criticise others
wtf.
you think you so good is it.
people like her so quiet but still got feelings one alright.


i think she's better then you 1000000000 times.
theres no point denying you're better then her.
but your attitude, your character,
seriously.
fuck off luh k.



goodnight everyone.
jiayou bobby! (:

i shall pray again later!

its tmr!!
hope it'll be as good as prelims.
idk what i'm feeling now.
i prayed just now!
my prayer so long i took 5 minutes to say everything.
i repeated alot of stuff i think.



i guess everything's happening too fast.
i hate knowing new people cause i know in the end i'll lose them.


i regret.
i told myself not to make the same mistake,
but ..
sigh.

telling people to cheer up when you yourself.. sigh.

hope tmr gets better.


if we hold on together,
i know our dreams will never die.
dreams see us through to forever,
when clouds roll by,
for you, and i.

keep believing, dreams are for weaving.

can't believe i on com for 2 weeks.
guess i'm so caught up with everything.

my results are demoralizing, seriously very very bad.
):
i shall work like hell for mid year since i'm a nerd.

oac's been fun.
hate the rope burn but i love belaying!
but its scary later the person die when i belay.
haha sleeping at like 1 plus is.. tiring.
but i get to bath for longer time feels good.
i've gotten over wilderness.
i'm still sorry though, for disappointing you.
(dont think you'll read it anyway)

i'm sorry.

and 3c's been a great class (:

wanted to type more about oac but.. another day i guess.

training mon wed fri!
gosh my hol is like non hol anymore that sad k.
but its okay cause we'll get first. !
i hope haha.
no we will!

going out with potato to study tmr!
haha looking forward actually.

haven told my father my results yet.
his coming back tmr.
i'v promised to work harder, i hope he understands.


i think i've changed.


ps. potato is weird. :)

going for orr dept sleepover.
then heading for oac with dept tmr.
hope everything goes well!

dont think anyone comes here anymore.

i print 100+ pages worth of proposals!



i dont trust you anymore.

(L) you know who you are.

its been so long since i came on com.
i'm too busy to think about anything so its good.
haha hmm oac's coming scared i screw.
ct 1 is okay..
my amath sucks.
D:
printing lots of proposals now.
well.. hope evrything goes well.
my elbow hurts like hell.

JY RCY !
haha go tiny !! :D


is everyone here make-believe?

its getting to me.

dont know whats got into me lately..

whats wrong..

sometimes you just got to keep things inside,
cause you can't just blabber out everything.
consequences = conflicts = never ending.

but once you've crossed the line,
i rather we thrashed it all out.

how can you be so SMUG when you're in the wrong.

CNY.
can't bring myself to talk about it.
cause there's nothing to much to say...

no cousins my age to play.
all gambling.
i just watched tv the whole day from 2pm-2am
fun huh?

the other two days were spent at home.
didnt see the need to go and waste my time.
but i'm bored.


memoirs of a geisha.

the nightmare i hoped would replace reality was just the beginning.

the answer was already written in the darkness, scribbled on the wind, circling the house and preparing to enter our hearts.

We, only had to listen.


so what else do you need to know?
the answer, is only oblivious to the blinded.
as so it seems.

my calm heart made my mind settled.
everything, no longer matters.
why can't you feel the sadness in my voice,
threatening to consume me?

FINALLY.

survivor started!! <3


20th season.
familiar faces ha love this show.

and i'll hold on to it, dont let it pass you by.

"I miss everything, that still exists. So much changed and now it's not like how it used to be.Or at least how I'd wanted it to be."


glad i saw all of your true colours.

_________

inferiority complex?


heros and villians.

things i do during weekend:

wakeup, stone, breakfast, stone, study, tv, stone, sleep, eat, study, stone.


with your parents telling you "study okay must revise" every 15-30 min,
won't you get frustrated.


i'm bored like hell i resorted to walking around the house, throwing a ball at the wall and catching it back, sleeping on the floor, stoning at the house, opening every drawer in my house to find something new to play, walking up and down the stairs, flickering the channels.


soon i will explode.
all my weekends are = staying at home to study study study study study study
and i end up getting really bored so i watch tv, stone, and then i'll feel guilty i never study and then i get so frustrated with myself.


i'm very irritated, very restless, i dunno what to do.
i want to die okay seriously.. just stop asking me to study... stop pls..


i'm really scared alright?
i dont want history to repeat itself yet again.


how i wish i can just collapse fade away.
never be back.

thanks for everything tiny.
i'm not good at expressing how i feel.

but thanks alot.
(:


ups and downs.
i'm scared.

HAHA my grandma thought.

hello kitty was

called

FATTY MAO.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

i just deleted my whole chunk of words i type.

i told the macdonalds counter :

me: can i have curly fries?
guy: what curly fries? twister fries you mean?
me: (shit) uh yeah twister fries.
guy: (LAUGH)

):

I HATE YOU.

be like this for what.
biased right.


bitch.

cannot use com for four days.
ok so its kind of dead now.

forgot what happen last few days le haha.

nvm bye.
haha this post is useless.

dont say i never warn you.

i repeat myself.

i hate putting in effort when i see others dont even give a shit bout it.
i absolutely dont see why i should do this for you,
since you are best at only doing one thing,

claiming the f credit.


is it even YOURS to take.


so why am i even trying to hard to do all these things.
when you dont give a damn.
furthermore, go compare what we have to what you have.


1. very frustrated.
2. very pissed.

but i must control my ap right.
dont show it to people hor. hor?


go eat shit.

i'm too tired to complain,
that i'm sick of this.

so what if i still have my ap.
i dont like whats happening, i really dont.

i dont see why i should put in effort when others dont bother.
so my efforts til now is useless then.
so i try so hard.. others dont try.. then why i try so hard.
same result right.

fuck this why the hell am i even caring.
from now on, i wont give a shit about this matter.

i repeat --
i dont give a damn.


//
thanks E, for even bothering to talk to me.

induction was good.



back to square one.
this feeling sucks.
well maybe i'm meant to be this way.

just done proposal.
well rushed it after coming home from dinner.
read the rest's blog .
i can't be bothered to type one whole chunk man

cc today was okay.
prefer shelter actually.. but..
pegging's fine.
hmm today like nth to do actually haha
actually got luh.
GARDENING!! haha!
i planted like 3 or 4 plant today.
and i took away all the plants surrounding my plant!!
so mine got all the nutrients :D

our group lacked manpower.
where's the man, man!

ok i dont have a face now D:

tmr got induction and i'm damn tired now
and i got to go do video + print proposals.

i dont like ):
i want to sleep ):

haha!
my class scholars are really nice!!
hehe i like u u (pronounced liddat) 's name! :D
haha yknow my class the contact list,
they write my birthday 13/01/95
when its supposed to be 10 for the month
so today and yesterday at 12 plus got people wish me!!
HAHA so funny!! but anw thx k. :D

he he and i just smsed v haha she text like she normal singaporean man.
:D
haha i was like "okay luh" then she ask me whats luh hahah!


(:
this is enough to make my day.


//
today was half day!
haha so yay induction vid done!!
yay mdm zetty happy with vid i think yay!
he he only got afew amendments here and there.
hmm tmr doing orienteering proposal.
shal bring cc manual haha transfer all info inside.

:D

oh my zuo wen so many corr!!!!
D:
yay and i like physics now can draw alot of diagram haha.


k bye!! :D
cheer up everyone.

school's been fine.
fuck that bitch who told me off man.
seriously dont know full story still scold.

induction video's done (i hope)
spent like dunno how many days pls let it be the final one.
induction's coming hai so many meeting.
today one meeting, tmr another meeting, thurs fri another meeting.
-_-
i'm in orienteering dept.
sick of orienteering... no choice.
make the best out of it!
its such a dry topic.

this is only second week of sch man.
i feel like its mid year.

i must come home early tmr to sleep.



fuck that bitch..

yknow what.
everytime i sleep, the whole process came to my mind.
everytime i see the place, it comes again.

everytime i think about it...it gets worse..

its haunting me like mad.

i.. dont want it stuck in my head..
its horrible..

bloody annoyed.
i'm trying damn hard not to swear okay.



FISHERS.
go fishing away.
:@

seriously i want stuff dung in your face.

i am at a loss
but i think.. i'm not even going to give it a try.

if i have the time, i would.
but the problem is, i dont!
):


if i accept and try, i bet my dad's going to school again.

_______________________________________________

first day of sch was boring to the max.
mrs jai didnt come so all the class com. matters all not settled.
from start morning to recess we practically stoned and slept.
then after then had mt haha had to move to 3I.
okay i hate the teachers voice haha.
then had ss/geog lecture!
omg pls yknow i was listening for like 10 mins,
then i realised for the next 10 mins i was stoning at her!

D:

and my ss hw not accepted oh man.
i used the wrong ink!!
wahlao i write so much want me rewrite ?!
D:

training was okay!
hmm now got nth to look forward to everyday except training.

oh the teacher cheat our feelings!!
say will upload the ss powerpoint and the notes but she never.
D: !!!!!

how i wish i made a different choice.
if you hadn't stop me, i'll go ip.

i know my teachers!!

eng - mrs jai (form)
amath & emath - ms chin! (omg damn scary pls)
bio - mr chen
physics - mr r goh
chem - mr chia
ss geog - ms tan yah hui (??)

D:
good or not?


HAHA tiny ah tiny you LOSER.
yes luh yes i do yes luh i do HAHA.

woah tmr very busy!
after sch apt, 230 coals meeting, then training bobby!
jyjy.

tmr bring what ah?

theres something to look forward to on mon!!
:DDD